June 2012
- me: omg tell me!!!!!!11
- dad: no you're only a child, this doesn't concern you
- me: OMG EVERYTIME YOU WANT ME TO DO SOMETHING YOU SAY I'M AN ADULT
- me: AND EVERYTIME YOU DON'T WANT TO TELL ME SOMETHING YOU SAY I'M STILL A CHILD
- me: I'M SICK OF BEING USED
- me: I'M SICK OF BEING DECEIVED
- me: I JUST WANT TO BE TREATED FAIRLY
- me: SOBS
- me: *runs out dramatically pretending to cry like they do in animes*
- dad: *continues talking like nothing happened*
I will seriously say yes to anyone who proposes with ‘I ship us’.
No joke.
dw i hate everyone don’t take it personally
I was already 18 when I first realised what a lonely person I was.
On a dark and gloomy afternoon I rode the train home from school alone, trees flying past me, listening to Nell on a battered mp3 player.
To this day I do not know what triggered these thoughts, I was not depressed, I was not suicidal, but for the first time in my life, listening to the annoying sounds of the teenagers telling unfunny jokes and the soothing sounds of Nell I realised perhaps for the first time, that I did not know what I was doing. Why I was in the world, what my purpose was, why I was born. A wave passed me and I felt incredibly sad.
You see, I have two theories, one is that we are born on this earth for a specific purpose and we must strive to fulfil it before or until we die. My second theory is that humans are not born on this earth for any purpose, and that we are born, everything in life is meaningless and then we die. As time passed I began leaning towards the second theory and began to question why we are educated otherwise. Why do we go to school? Why do we get jobs? Why do we get married? Doesn’t it all end anyway?
“I rarely suffer lengthy emotional distress from contact with other people. A person may anger or annoy me, but not for long. I can distinguish between myself and another as beings of two different realms. It’s a kind of talent (by which I do not mean to boast: it’s not an easy thing to do, so if you can do it, it is a kind of a talent - a special power). When someone gets on my nerves, the first thing I do is transfer the object of my unpleasant feelings to another domain, one having no connection with me. Then I tell myself, Fine, I’m feeling bad, but I’ve put the source of these fellings into another zone, away from here, where I can examine it and deal with it later in my own good time. In other words, I put a freeze on my emotions. Later, when I thaw them out to perform the examination, I do occasionally find my emotions in a distressed state, but that is rare. The passage of time will usuallly extract the venom from most things and render them harmless. Then sooner or later, I forget about them.”
—The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, Haruki Murakami.
angel / into your world
as if i was reborn as a child who doesn’t know anything
i thought it was a dream so i closed my eyes and opened them again
you were standing in front of my desperate self and praying
i want to walk side by side with you at least once
just once, just once
i ride the soft wind into your world
i go right next to you and you ask where i came from
you asked so innocently, so i answered that it’s a secret
because if we just walk together like this
wherever we go, it’ll be heaven
wherever we go, it’ll be heaven
yeah
you are more dazzling than michael
who could ever oppose you?
i won’t forgive anyone who does
just like the first person to step on eden
every day i will only go toward you and trust you with my heart
even if it’s a small thing
so you won’t ever have to suffer
i want to protect you always, i’m eternally in love
as your guardian angel i will block out that strong wind
even if everyone turns their back against you
on hard days i will wipe away your tears
if only i can be that kind of person
wherever we go it’ll be heaven
i have come to love you now
there’s no place for me to go back to
my wings have been taken away, oh no
even if i’ve lost eternal life, the reason why i’m happy
is because my forever is now you
i ride the soft wind into your world
i go right next to you and you ask where i came from
you asked so innocently, so i answered that it’s a secret
because if we just walk together like this
wherever we go, it’ll be heaven
top 10 most played songs
1. the chaser - infinite
2. the day before - nell
3. angel / into your world - exo-k’s baekhyun, d.o. & suho
4. mama / exo-k
5. only tears - infinite
6. reality of reality - nell
7. what is love - exo-k’s baekhyun & d.o.
8. bad - epik high’s tablo ft. mad soul child’s jin sil
9. going - a-ble
10. home - epik high’s tablo ft. lee so ra
lol i have no variety in mah life
How to be Woohyun's girlfriend:
- Step one: You already are.
Nell - Reality of Reality
Reality of Reality - NELL (넬)
BEAUTIFUL STRANGER
NELL
TRACK: BEAUTIFUL STRANGER
ARTIST: NELL
ALBUM: SLIP AWAY (7TH ALBUM)
Anyway this is so sad
but I was leaving my friend’s house and it was pitch dark and my dad was there to pick me up so I ran to the car and on the way I slipped and fell down in the darkness and I fell like flat on the ground like a starfish and made a really loud noise.
I was so embarrassed and like hobbled my way to the car.
Me: … Dad did you see that?
Dad: Yes, are you okay?
Me: Yeah It didn’t hurt that much.
Dad: HAHAHAAHAHAH why did you run if you knew you were going to fall?
Me: …
Dad: Seriously I can’t believe you just fell.
Me:
Me:
Dad: Why did you run, you’re so stupid. HAHAHAHAHHA.
I hate it when you’re having the best dream of your life but then your stupid brain is like ‘hey wait this doesn’t seem real’ and you’re like ‘no no it’s real it’s real man just let me dream’ and then your brain is like ‘nah I don’t think this is real man, your actual life is shit, remember?’ and then your brain takes over and you wake up.
I don't know if you've realised yet but the colour on your blog is dark brown. I have a feeling you were looking for black, but if what you wanted was dark brown then that's cool too LOLOLOLOL ok love ya
it’s black lol……
some people are just born with majestic faces with blinding beauty while i fell from the ugly tree hitting every single branch and then landed on shit
I just want holidays to come so I can sleep at 5am and wake up in the afternoon and avoid all social interaction and read books and curl up in a ball and do nothing all day and pretend I’m a cat and yeah.
"I really like skinship." - Myungsoo
If Myungsoo’s girlfriend was angry, he’d kiss her.
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