Today I had to go to a make up class for tutor.. Everything was normal until I remembered that the boy I used to like 2 years ago was in this particular class.

My first thoughts were fuck. Lol. Anyway, I don’t think he realised I was there because he sat right in front of me and only spun around and realised I was there until my tutor asked me a question.

Throughout the whole lesson I didn’t dare make a noise because I didn’t want to attract attention to myself.

Even though I don’t like him anymore it was still awkward.. Maybe it’s because after him, I haven’t liked anyone since. For 2 years. Or maybe it was because of the way we stopped talking abruptly and (I) avoided him at all costs. I don’t know.

The lesson went along smoothly I guess, I wanted to get up and leave as soon as we were dismissed.

Finally, my tutor dismissed us. I was waiting for him to leave first but he didn’t, he sort of just stood there.

I thought great, now what.. Until he turned around, made eye contact and said.. “Isabel… I’m really sorry for what happened.”

I guess I wasn’t surprised, I half realised it was going to happen anyway.. I mean, maybe he had felt deathly vibes radiating from me during the lesson. Who knows?
I told him there was nothing to apologise for and that it was ages ago. I even smiled.

We made light conversation and it didn’t seem awkward. Phew.

It kind of got me thinking as to why he apologised to me. It seemed like he had wanted to say something since ages ago, maybe even 2 years ago, but me, being immature back then (still am by the way) had purposely avoided him.

I don’t really know why he apologised. Perhaps it was because he dumped(?), no, I’m going to go with ended things.. Maybe because he ended things between us over Facebook message, or maybe it was because he hadn’t said anything to me for 2 years. I really don’t know.

However, I’m glad it happened. He didn’t have to, but somehow, I am glad he did.